Back to School

Why is it that when the start of the next school year rolls around I am always behind in something? Be it getting a parking pass for a garage, getting my books, or begging the University to reinstate my scholarship, I am always late in getting prepared. For instance, I just signed my lease for a house with my roommates on Monday, July 25. That is less than a month till my first day of school. Most kids get their houses rented by the middle of April. No, I had to put it off until the last possible time. Call me lazy or underachieving, whatever. I guess I just assume it will all get done in time. That the magic college fairy will wave her wand and all my books will be purchased, my scholarship will be back, and all my stuff will be moved and set up in my house. I guess I got to quit dreaming.

I have to write a letter explaining to the masters of U of A, why my GPA was so low to lose my scholarship. I have no idea what I am going to say to convince them to give me my scholarship back. Like, 'hey I didn't study hard enough and I will promise to try harder next year' is the best I can come up with. I don't want to blame it on my migraines or my Oma (that's my mom's mom) getting breast cancer. I am sure loads of kids have harder circumstances and do way better grades wise than I did. Since that is the truth, why did I do average and not beyond the means of survival in college? I am pretty smart yes, a procrastinator yes, and possibly lazy? Definitely. Yet I have this uncanny ability to do better in life, yet I chose not try as hard as I could. The sad thing is I really do want to try hard. So how come my mind has not fully cooperated with my desperation to get all 'A's?

Well let's not dwell on that too much. I'm off to get paint chips for my new room. I have to tackle these things one task at a time. If my mother is reading this (which I am sure she is) I will write my letter when I get back from looking at color options.